I could feel my insides sink . My knees too . So I sat on the ground , against the wall , letting it support me . I thought I knew what heartbreak felt like . I thought heartbreak was me , standing alone at the prom . That was nothing . This , this was heartbreak . The pain in your chest , the ache behind your eyes . The knowing that things will never be the same again . It’s all relative , I suppose . You think you know love , you think you know real pain , but you don’t . You don’t know anything .
i want the pain to end...
it’s a struggle for me to make it to the end of the day , it’s a struggle for me to exist , the urge for me to die gets stronger every day , but it’s okay , I wouldn’t expect you to understand . I don’t ever want you to know what this feels like . I always read stories , see movies about things I want in my life . I really wish I could go out there and make those things happen instead of just imagining them .
new cover from me . xx
